To Love a Rose: An Ethiopian Adoption Journal

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Decisions, Decisions, IMPORTANT Decisions...

I had *nearly* forgotten what the adoption process was like...but not quite.  It's still as nerve-wrecking and stressful as always.  Don't get me wrong, I'm really looking forward to it all - even the messy parts; but it doesn't make it any easier.

After the adoption and infertility conferences a few weeks ago, we got to talk with Holt International's mid-west representative.  We told her our background with our old agency and the Ethiopia program; which explained why we are now so skittish about heading back down that road again.

She was really kind and gave us an information packet, and told us to look through the programs Holt offers and get back to her with the one that stood out to us.  Nearly immediately, we were drawn to Thailand.  The program is super stable (it's been around since the late 1970's), and it seems ethical; which puts our hearts and minds at ease.

HOWEVER (there's always a "however", isn't there?), the referral wait time for Thailand seems to be about 2 years on average.  After waiting as long as we have to have a child, 24 months feels like an eternity.  BUUUUUUT, we feel drawn to Thailand SO MUCH.  So, what do we do???

Thailand...looking beautiful and inviting...
Do we stick with our hearts and just pray like crazy that God speeds up our process in Thailand? we go with one of the other two programs we're eligible for???


Or do we try Ethiopia again...even knowing that the program is going through growing pains and difficulties?

I know what we're thinking at the moment, but I can never be sure until God pushes me in the direction I'm absolutely supposed to go.  I literally praying that he just out-right shoves me!  I need him to come down from the heavens and yell, "Mandie, go this way!"  Ah, if only it were that easy, right?

In the meantime, lots and lots of prayers are going to be said by Mr. C and I.  We really want to make the right decision; our child is out there waiting somewhere...


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