To Love a Rose: An Ethiopian Adoption Journal

Saturday, September 3, 2011


My NEW haircut - shaved on the sides mohawk (I poofed it instead of spiking it in this pic) - I ADORE it!

It's kind of ironic that I recently got a new haircut; because there's LOTS of "new" things in my life right now.

1. I still HAVE NOT STARTED MY PERIOD!  This is 15 DPO - longest luteul phase of my life (well, at least for the past 3 years of charting).  I always start on 14 DPO - always.  But yesterday came and went without even a cramp.

Before you start getting excited for me, I have taken two pregnancy tests (and yes, one was a First Response) - both were negative.  I had very, very light brownish and pinkish spotting on 12 and 13 DPO.  I thought for sure my period was going to show up as usual on 14 DPO, but nothing...........yet. 

I'm not trying to be negative, but I want to be sensible too.  There are a lot of reasons that my period could be late - one very obvious one being the Chinese herbs I was on this cycle.  Maybe they somehow slowed things down?  Who knows?  All I do know is that I got one and only one +OPK this cycle, and Mr. C and I fulfilled our duty; so, we did everything we could to make it work this cycle.  This was also our last cycle of acupuncture before the adoption starts; so, it was kind of our "last ditch effort" cycle.  If it is pregnancy, God has a crazy sense of humor.

My mom recently told me that she was pregnant for two months with me before she got a +HPT.  That gave me a bit more hope.  I had stopped taking my progesterone support thinking I didn't need it after the two -HPT's; but I started again tonight, just in case.

I feel ridiculous getting my hopes up; but then again...maybe...

2. My sister W was in the ER again today.  As many of you know from reading my blog, W's PCOS has caused her to have catamenial epilepsy; which means she has seizures (painful ones too) around her period and ovulation.  We've known since December that this was the case, but she is just now going to be going to a specialist in this area on the 14th of this month.

So, back to today: W had 3 cluster seizures today.  We are exactly ONE WEEK away from our hometown show.  Another tid-bit you probably know from reading here is that I'm in a band (The Beautifully Broken) with my two sisters, M and W.  We've been "on hold" for two years now trying to get W healthy enough to perform again; now, we finally get the balls to do a show, and W has 3 cluster seizures one week to the day to the event.

She's MUCH better after a stint in the ER, but it just sucks that it had to happen at all.  At the end of the day, though, we are not giving up.  We're moving forward, and this show is not only going to happen, it's going to ROCK.  W's so amazing - she has just kept pushing forward.  I am really looking forward to this show; I can't wait to perform again after two years away!

3. I was asked by the fabulous Keiko at Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed to write a piece for her blog specifically about my experience with PCOS this week since it's September which is PCOS Awareness Month.  So, on Wednesday, make sure you head over to her blog to check it out.  I'm going to be talking about PCOS in general a bit, but also the "natural" or "eastern" medicine way of dealing with your diagnosis.  I hope it will help some people.

I've said it many times before, but I'll say it again.  If you have been diagnosed with PCOS or know someone who has, PLEASE, do yourself a favor and go check out Soul Cysters.  It's amazing and full of incredible resources and community boards with women ready and willing to share their journeys with you.

4. Hives.  I'm still getting them.  Well, I guess that isn't "new"; but it's weird to me that even after a steroid shot that I would be dealing with the itchy, little (or not so little) buggers!  Argh!  They are truly annoying.

Okay........I've GOT to go to bed!  I'll try to remind you all to check out Keiko's blog with my post on Wednesday.  In the meantime, be well and be blessed!

All the Love in the World,


  1. Fingers crossed that you'll get your positive in a few days!! You just never know - my friend was almost 8 weeks pregnant before she finally got a HPT to read + with her 2nd baby, and my mom never got an HPT to accurately read her results, so she always had to do blood tests. Our bodies are so fun. :) OH and I'm also posting about PCOS on Keiko's blog next week, but my day is Thursday!

  2. Wow- that is quite a twist on your period. Have you asked the acupuncturist about the delayed LP?
    Your haircut looks great- show us a pic when you spike it as well! ;o)
    Here's hoping you and your sisters will be able to perform soon...

  3. Melissa: Awesome! What are you going to talk about in regards to PCOS? It's so far-reaching, I had a really hard time trying to decide what specific topic to focus on; but in the end I chose acu/TCM, because I think it's still a pretty rare subject in the PCOS world.

    Cullens: I have not been able to see my acupuncturist since about 5 DPO, because of everything going on; so, I have no clue what to think. The only time I've had it delayed like this was when I was pregnant about two months after we got married. At the time, though, my mom was dealing with cancer treatments/surgery; so, I didn't take care of myself like I probably should have and m/c. :-( That's kinda why I'm being a freako about taking my progesterone again (just started yesterday @ 15 DPO) - just in case.

    And don't worry, we WILL be setting foot on stage again - 7:30 p.m. on Saturday (the 10th). The show must go on! W decided to just sit behind her keyboard and use a boom mic for singing; so she doesn't have to exert herself too much. It's all going to work out. I'm excited, but I'm actually sick right now. Boo! GOT to stop this post nasal drip and sore throat!

  4. I agree, it was difficult to find a topic to focus on. I chose the "skinny cyster" syndrome (ie not being a textbook PCOS woman and why that sometimes makes it harder to treat), and also how it feels to be a young infertile woman in a world that tends to view infertility as something only older women experience. We'll see how it develops... Can't wait to read your post on Wednesday! I'll be sure to link your post onto my blog so my readers can take a look. :)

  5. I love the hair!

    I'll be sending lots of good thoughts to your sister.

    Are you going to get a blood test done if AF doesn't arrive soon? Please do. The suspense is killing me! :)

  6. @M: Haha! Yes! I am waiting out the rest of this week. Since I'm out of state for the hometown gig, I won't really have a chance until next Monday or even Tuesday. But if still no AF at that point, I will definitely be getting a blood test for sure! :-)

    And thanks, I'm loving my hair too. And another thanks for the good thoughts. I'm really hoping this new RE will be able to sort things out for her. We just need to make it through the show and get her to St. Louis on the 14th for this appointment!